NExt Upp

02/27/2026

This site is very bare bones rn. It may be forever, i'm not sure. But I really like it here. I feel like I have more agency over my voice, more freedom to express the way I want to.

I'd love to turn this into a blog that pushes out emails every so often. Maybe guest writers, day to day life and what I find creatively inspiring. Every time I'm enjoying record or see art I like, I'd much rather put that here than any major media platform. Even if it gets a lot less eyes, this is what feels good. Leaving my house without my phone feels great too. Highly rec for community events if you can swing it.

I knew massive change would come in 2026 based on years of listening to astrology experts talk about what was to come. The world hasn't seen this much of a rapid cultural shift in decades, maybe even centuries. A lot of it is scary, some kind of exciting. Nothing lasts forever and rolling with it is the only option. In a way this means my usual high of music photography will change forever. On the flip, it creates the challenge of adaptation and reinvention.

As an astrologer myself, I also knew this would put a huge weight on the music industry. We're truly in the midst of starting from scratch. The process will be slow and take a lot of work, but in 5 years, solutions should start to feel like a dream come true. Its not an end, its a delay. A time to take the pressure off of making money and innovate. Only time and effort can get us through. So in the meantime I think we should think back to what brought us here in the first place and really make it count. On an human, intrinsic, community-based level. The only way through is together.

No Hunch, No Dice

02/26/2026

I just wanna say rq, where's the fucking passion. From myself, from the world. Where is it? Its like everything is for money now. Big ugly money. I'm disgusted. Clout is money too btw. Fake beauty.

I rewatched Lords of Dogtown today and it brought me to tears. It reminded me of life before smartphones when people connected different. The way they could have conflict and show up for each other was so beautiful. It made me think of all the adventures we'd be having right now if the billionaires didn't power up algorithms to divide us. Its fucked.

In the movie, I was paying close attention to the boys and how their choices and motivations stacked up over time. The movie follows the typical rise and fall of stardom when a trend hits the masses. Their manager Skip is in it for the money, Tony for the fame, Jay to help his mom, and Stacy for the love of skating. They all love to skate, but Stacy's kinda straight-laced and almost doesnt make the cut because of it. They had to let him join cuz he topped them all in the first 30 minutes. Autistic? maybe...

Anyway-- I felt seen by that. And as an artist working in the music industry, a place with similarly fast highs and lows, I wanted to see how all these peoples' lives panned out. I won't get into it in case you haven't seen the movie yet but in the way I'd expect, Stacy continued to persue many passions after skateboarding. Hes directed 12 movies, wrote Lords of Dogtown, and more recently took up painting. He's 68 btw.

I've always felt like if you follow your gut and live on passion as it comes in waves, you're good. Like there's nothing that matters more (outside of survival ofc). And thats who I wanna be - forever. I wanna be a freak for the things I love. I'm a rule follower, I'm not cool or some kind of pirate lying piece of shit that's gonna rob you for the sake of the game.

It gets misunderstood so often, to love what you do just because you really love it intrinsically. Especially if that garners external reward. I've thought a lot about how validation and opportunity has sometimes crushed my passion or brought on judgement that I must have some alterior motive or not deserve it. But istg, if I love an art form, I'll run circles around the next guy cuz I'm rabid.

I'm crazy. I'm up til 3 am with the tinker hunch, scrunched up over my craft like a drug. Unquenchable.

What I'm really trying to say here is this. I want to feel connected with the people around me like they fucking matter. I've felt that more and more over the past few months tfg. I want to create like a freak no matter the medium, my age, what I've made before. You can always run on to the next one and bring along shit you've learned from the last. And finally, I want to find a way to perserve the first two so they can never get tied up in evil again. I love music, making art, and my community but sometimes the way the industry rears its ugly head is just not worth it. I will always be an artist first.

No hunch, no dice.